Interesting

That pretty much sums up my weekend.

Stuff happened that I'm not exactly proud of.
I need to find a better way to escape reality.
That was by far my worst way.
And worst idea ever.
But I can't regret it.
I hate regretting anything in life.
And it definitely got me away from reality.
And I had a really good talk with a really good friend.
It only made me 100 times closer.

I am so thankful to have amazing people in my life.

And the cherry on top...
My dad visiting me today :)
It was just what I needed.
No drama.
No craziness.
Just honest heart to heart talk with him.
I seriously love my dad to death.
He is one of the few reasons I can survive at home.
He is always so grounded.
And put together.
My dad is honestly my hero.
I don't know what I would do without him.
He is one of those people you can talk to about anything.
And he is always honest with you.
Never rude.
Never judging.
I love you dad.

And I am never taking for granted every moment I have with him.
The past 2 weeks have been hard.
But I think I am ready to hit the ground running this week.
Just 2 more weeks.
2 more weeks and it's vacation time.
A week of no technology.
No drama.
Nothing.
Just water.
Peace.
Happiness.
I cannot wait.
Because afterwards is going to be nuts!
Absolutely nuts!

I am completely scared shitless about this conference.
Deathly scared.
And I am trying not to freak about it now.
But it is all of a month away.
Kind of hard not to.
So much to still do.
Crap.

No.
No.
No.

Positive thoughts.
We are going to make this happen.
One way or another.
No more being sad.
Or depressed.
Or stressed.
Or anything.

I guess that means I need sleep.
Here comes Monday.
Whether I'm ready or not.
Joy!