Big Mess Up

Well I am pretty sure I just screwed everything up.

God damn depression.

Just fucked everything up.
I will be surprised if this boy still wants to talk to me.

I am at a loss for words.
I just ruined everything.
Well if there was even anything there...
Fuck.
I'm not going there again.

Sorry.

It's sleep time.
Only because it seems like the best option at this point.
Maybe this all is just a nightmare.
Maybe I didn't just mess up something possibly amazing.
Maybe there is still hope...

I guess we will just have to wait and see...


And if this boy is reading this...
Can we have 10 digits Sunday night?
Thanks.